been fortified against a surprise.
He was forced to acknowledge that goodness did exist.
This convict had been good.
And he himself, unprecedented circumstance, had just been good also.
So he was becoming depraved.
He found that he was a coward.
He conceived a horror of himself.
Javert''s ideal, was not to be human, to be grand, to be sublime; it was to be irreproachable.
Now, he had just failed in this.
How had he come to such a pass?
How had all this happened? He could not have told himself.
He clasped his head in both hands, but in spite of all that he could do, he could not contrive to explain it to himself.
He had certainly always entertained the intention of restoring Jean Valjean to the law of which Jean Valjean was the captive, and of which he, Javert, was the slave.
Not for a single instant while he held him in his grasp had he confessed to himself that he entertained the idea of releasing him.
It was, in some sort, without his consciousness, that his hand had relaxed and had let him go free.
All sorts of interrogation points flashed before his eyes.
He put questions to himself, and made replies to himself, and his replies frightened him.
He asked himself:
"What has that convict done, that desperate fellow, whom I have pursued even to persecution, and who has had me under his foot, and who could have avenged himself, and who owed it both to his rancor and to his safety, in leaving me my life, in showing mercy upon me?