r.I don’t think I’m too bad. She said she want play with me and want to know my history .But shy can’t 承受 . Because shy likes a child. She can’t understand me.
I also don’t hope she can know me. Our world are different .We can’t get well on each other. I’m alone ,in the past ,in the present, and in the future , I think.
I don’t believe anyone, my parents, my common friends, my best friends, even myself.
They maybe discuss me, but let me know nothing, I don’t know their thinging, I also don’t want to get on sb. so difficult. I only want to do what I like.
To night is a star night, so cool. But I havn’t finished my work. I’m difficulty in physics. Though today I’m unlucky , tomorrow I must work harder.
98年10月27日
This morning , she had fetched my diary , I weren’t angry . I thought she couldn’t read it , but I’m wrong. Though she read it ,I felt nothing . Maybe I have no thinking for her, she is only a child. I have already forgotten laught, cry from my heart. Maybe I always like this .“If you don’t mind the result , just do it .” ,to her ，to me. In fact ,she is a clever and lovely girl . Though her 思想 is so simple . why she makes herself like a boy, In fact she isn’t all like a boy . In my opinion, she needs more love than me. A girl , a pity girl ! In what time ,you can stand up and face the fact. In my heart ,you don’t like me and respect me very much . I know I don’t cost you do that at least. You only like my mother look. I’m so glad you always take care of me ,though you can’t look after yourself very well. But sometimes you’re also good at hurting someone . Or I can say you laught at me in certain thing. I have no idear to you. I’m such a useless person.I feel you ofen drop yourself. I couldn’t hate you. I am only worry about you instead.