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he glass, and my eyes were dark as bruises, the bones at

my throat standing out like wires. I heard Stephen''s voice, two floors below, and

when I was sure the drawing-room door was closed, I went down to Mother''s

room and found the chloral. I took twenty scruples of it—then, when I had sat,

waiting for the tug of it and feeling nothing, I took another ten.

Then I felt my blood begin to treacle and the flesh upon my face seem to

grow thick, and the pain behind my brow grew less, and I knew the medicine was

working. I put the chloral back inside the drawer, very neatly, just as Mother

would like. Then I went downstairs to stand beside her and smile at the guests.

She looked at me once when I appeared, to see that I was tidy; after that, she

didn''t look at me again. Helen, however, came to kiss me. ''You have been arguing,

I know,'' she whispered. I said, ''Oh Helen, how I wish Priscilla had not gone!''

Then I began to fear that she would smell the medicine on my mouth. I took a

glass of wine from Vigers'' tray, to take the scent away.

Vigers looked at me, as I did that, and said quietly, ''The pins of your hair,

miss, are working loose.'' She held her tray against her hip a moment, and put her

hand to my head—and it seemed the kindest gesture, suddenly, that anyone had

ever shown me, anyone at all.

Then Ellis struck the dinner-bell. Stephen took Mother, and Helen went with