She found a midwife she trusted，Tamra Roloff，a great admirer of Gaskin who owned the lobsp;health-food store，THbsp;anibsp;Market.“She was just like，‘Your birth is going to be amazing，it''s going to be so powerful，’”Bizzell recalls.“There was a lot of this earth goddess emp stuff.”
All this resonated with Bizzell.The home-birth subculture，she says，draws“you in with the idea that this kind of birth will make you a powerful woman.It will make you spiritual.It will even make you a better mother.”She longed for all of that.“I wanted to make the best decisions for my baby，”she says.“And now he''s dead.It turns out I made the worst decision possible.”
A few decades ago，home birth in the United States was mostly limited to insular religious unities like the Amish and to dedicated members of the terculture like Gaskin，who husband founded The Farm as a une in the 1970s.In ret years，though，it''s moved toward the mainstream，spurred by the ri of attat parenting，a rea against a dysfunal medibsp;system，and pro-midwife dotaries like The Business of Being Born，whibsp;featured produbsp;Ribsp;Lake giving birth in her bathtub.Though still quite small，the number of home births is increasing—acc to the ters for Dia trol，it grew 29 pert between 2004 and 2009，to 29，650.
She found a midwife she trusted，Tamra Roloff，a great admirer of Gaskin who owned the lobsp;health-food store，THbsp;anibsp;Market.“She was just like，‘Your birth is going to be amazing，it''s going to be so powerful，’”Bizzell recalls.“There was a lot of this earth goddess emp stuff.”
All this resonated with Bizzell.The home-birth subculture，she says，draws“you in with the idea that this kind of birth will make you a powerful woman.It will make you spiritual.It will even make you a better mother.”She longed for all of that.“I wanted to make the best decisions for my baby，”she says.“And now he''s dead.It turns out I made the worst decision possible.”
A few decades ago，home birth in the United States was mostly limited to insular religious unities like the Amish and to dedicated members of the terculture like Gaskin，who husband founded The Farm as a une in the 1970s.In ret years，though，it''s moved toward the mainstream，spurred by the ri of attat parenting，a rea against a dysfunal medibsp;system，and pro-midwife dotaries like The Business of Being Born，whibsp;featured produbsp;Ribsp;Lake giving birth in her bathtub.Though still quite small，the number of home births is increasing—acc to the ters for Dia trol，it grew 29 pert between 2004 and 2009，to 29，650.