he asked himself. I don''t know. Do you think you have a right to kill any one No. But I have to. How many of those you have killed have been real fascists Very few. But they are all the enemy to whose force we are opposing force. But you like the people of Navarra better than those of any other part of Spain. Yes. And you kill them. Yes. If you don''t believe it go down there to the camp. Don''t you know it is wrong to kill Yes. But you do it Yes. And you still believe absolutely that your cause is right Yes.
It is right, he told himself, not reassuringly, but proudly. I believe in the people and their right to govern themselves as they wish. But you mustn''t believe in killing, he told himself. You must do it as a necessity but you must not believe in it. If you believe in it the whole thing is wrong.
But how many do you suppose you have killed I don''t know because I won''t keep track. But do you know Yes. How many You can''t be sure how many. Blowing the trains you kill many. Very many. But you can''t be sure. But of those you are sure of More than twenty. And of those how many were real fascists Two that I am sure of. Because I had to shoot them when we took them prisoners at Usera. And you did not mind that No. Nor did you like it No. I decided never to do it again. I have avoided it. I have avoided killing those who are unarmed.