"But it's pouring with rain! You're soaking! You must change at once! Did you go out to find something?"Maggie made no answer.She stood there, her face sulky and closed, the water dripping from her.Afterwards, as she changed her clothes, she reflected that there had been many occasions during these three days when her aunt would have felt irritation with her had she known her longer.She had always realised that she was careless, that when she should be thinking of one thing she thought of another, that her housekeeping and management of shops and servants had been irregular and undisciplined, but until now she had not sharply surveyed her weaknesses.Since the coming of her aunt she had been involved in a perfect network of little blunders; she had gone out of the room without shutting the door, had started into the village on an errand, and then, when she was there, had forgotten what it was;there had been holes in her stockings and rents in her blouses.
After Ellen's departure she had endeavoured to help in the kitchen, but had made so many mistakes that Aunt Anne and the kitchen-maid had been compelled to banish her.She now wondered how during so many years she had run the house at all, but then her father had cared about nothing so that money was not wasted.She knew that Aunt Anne excused her mistakes just now because of the shock of her father's death and the events that followed it, but Maggie knew also that these faults were deep in her character.She could explain it quite simply to herself by saying that behind the things that she saw there was always something that she did not see, something of the greatest importance and just beyond her vision; in her efforts to catch this farther thing she forgot what was immediately in front of her.It had always been so.Since a tiny child she had always supposed that the shapes and forms with which she was presented were only masks to hide the real thing.Such a view might lend interest to life, but it certainly made one careless; and although Uncle Mathew might understand it and put it down to the Cardinal imagination, she instinctively knew that Aunt Anne, unless Maggie definitely attributed it to religion, would be dismayed and even, if it persisted, angered.Maggie had not, after all, the excuse and defence of being a dreamy child.With her square body and plain face, her clear, unspeculative eyes, her stolid movements, she could have no claim to dreams.With a sudden desolate pang Maggie suspected that Uncle Mathew was the only person who would ever understand her.Well, then, she must train herself.