I was sincerely affected with this Discourse，as indeed who could be otherwise？ and I resolv'd not to think of going abroad any more，but to settle at home according to my Father's Desire. But alas！ a few Days wore it all off；and in short，to prevent any of my Father's farther Importunities，in a few Weeks after，I resolv'd to run quite away from him. However，I did not act so hastily neither as my first Heat of Resolution prompted，but I took my Mother，at a time when I thought her a little pleasanter than ordinary，and told her，that my Thoughts were so entirely bent upon seeing the World，that I should never settle to any thing with Resolution enough to go through with it，and my Father had better give me his Consent than force me to go without it；that I was now Eighteen Years old，which was too late to go Apprentice to a Trade，or Clerk to an Attorney；that I was sure if I did，I should never serve out my time，and I should certainly run away from my Master before my Time was out，and go to Sea；and if she would speak to my Father to let me go but one Voyage abroad，if I came home again and did not like it，I would go no more，and I would promise by a double Diligence to recover that Time I had lost.
This put my Mother into a great Passion：She told me，she knew it would be to no Purpose to speak to my Father upon any such Subject；that he knew too well what was my Interest to give his Consent to any thing so much for my Hurt，and that she wondered how I could think of any such thing after such a Discourse as I had had with my Father，and such kind and tender Expressions as she knew my Father had us'd to me；and that in short，if I would ruine my self there was no Help for me；but I might depend I should never have their Consent to it：That for her Part she would not have so much Hand in my Destruction；and I should never have it to say，that my Mother was willing when my Father was not.