It was some Months however before I resolved upon this；and therefore，as I had rewarded the old Captain fully，and to his Satisfaction，who had been my former Benefactor，so I began to think of my poor Widow，whose Husband had been my first Benefactor，and she，while it was in her Power，my faithful Steward and Instructor. So the first thing I did，I got a Merchant in Lisbon to write to his Correspondent in London，not only to pay a Bill，but to go find her out，and carry her in Money，an hundred Pounds from me，and to talk with her，and comfort her in her Poverty，by telling her she should，if I liv'd，have a further Supply：At the same time I sent my two Sisters in the Country，each of them an Hundred Pounds，they being，though not in Want，yet not in very good Circumstances；one having been marry'd，and left a Widow；and the other having a Husband not so kind to her as he should be.
But among all my Relations，or Acquaintances，I could not yet pitch upon one，to whom I durst commit the Gross of my Stock，that I might go away to the Brasils，and leave things safe behind me；and this greatly perplex'd me.
I had once a Mind to have gone to the Brasils，and have settled my self there；for I was，as it were，naturaliz'd to the Place；but I had some little Scruple in my Mind about Religion，which insensibly drew me back，of which I shall say more presently. However，it was not Religion that kept me rom going there for the present；and as I had made no Scruple of being openly of the Religion of the Country，all the while I was among them，so neither did I yet；only that now and then having of late thought more of it，（than formerly） when I began to think of living and dying among them，I began to regret my having profess'd my self a Papist，and thought it might not be the best Religion to die with.